Big Bang

My head feels clear for the first time since yesterday afternoon.

Motor functions, check. Sensory functions, check. Thinking capacity, never really had it to begin with. Right, I guess I'm finally back to normal.

Reached home at like 9am this morning from Jon's stayover. We didn't sleep A WINK. It was playing cards and talking cock all the way till this morning. XD Awesome-ness. Im not going to really bother anymore about anything that happened during the party. As far as I care, it ain't my problem. Please talk to someone who cares anymore. Apart from that, the party was absolutely brilliant. The 4+ hours spent just sitting around and talking cock was amazing. I'm still feeling quite dazed right now, haha.

I'm really going to miss Jonathan. Its funny that even though we all call him the Confuser he's pretty much the first person I talk to when I need, um, advice that concerns the matters of the heart. (LMAO that sounded like a cheesy third grade romance novel.) And sometimes, ok that's being mean, many times he's given me pretty sound advice. Like after the Term 1 Incident, he was one of those people instrumental in me finding my feet again. Him and Chris Daughtry. HAHA. Ask me about the latter privately. And to me he really seems like a great guy, who'll go far in life just with his attitude! Stay in touch BIG brudder. hahahahaha (sorry couldn't resist)

Right, today's agenda: Recover from yesterday. XD

That's all folks. Cheers.








"It's our last time, to say goodnight.
Don't say goodbye cuz' in the morning we'll,
see you around, and we'll sing it again
same time tomorrow, yeah we'll all join in"

Best in me

Just to continue with what I used to do regularly, here is a B-E-A-U-tiful song by Blue. It doesn't matter how old they are. I love this band. HAHA.



Cheers!

The big one

Well I've finally decided to update properly.

Woots.

Anyway these days have been amazing. I've never felt this free. Period. Its like some huge-ass burden has been lifted, letting me run around like a chicken with its head cut off.

Ok, forget the last part.

But its been a blast. I've been playing cricket, Magic: The Gathering, Divine Blood, and CHESS. I've been raiding people's houses. XD. I've been watching stupid movies, and sitting in front of my TV watching cricket till my brain turns to mush, and I sound like Ian Botham commentating. And, I've also sorted out ALL MY PROM STUFF. Haha. It was actually quite fun. I'm looking forward to see everyone again. But hell yea, this feels good.

And I'm also extra happy about something else. I'll publicly proclaim it when I've gotten all the final details. XD

Anyway, I'm going to Jon's house later for some crazy stay over party. I intend to enjoy myself to the fullest.

But its kindda funny, when I realize that come next year, I won't be around anymore. And thats a really gut-wrenching feeling. I think I'll go into some kind of temporary depression when I first hit Uni. No Eugene or Varun to make fun off. No Jon to confuse me (HAHA). No ZT, Fidot, Marcus, JT, Oli, Bala, Cricket team, Shrey, Dim, Sarah, no nothing. Gah. Emo-ness. I don't think I'm in the best frame of mind while typing this. So bear with the bad English. I'm gonna miss EVERYONE here. Keep in touch PLEASE. HAHA. Ill put up my address, my phone number, my dorm number, my email, my second life account.... ok forget the last one again.

Bleagh. Can't write anything else. Apart from, SCREW YOU BASTARD TERRORIST WHO ATTACKED THE CITY I GREW UP IN. I HOPE THE MOSSAD HUNT YOU DOWN AND KEEEEELLLLL YOOUUUUUU.

Ok now I'm done.

Cheers.









"Tell me that you love me and it'll be alright.
Are you thinking of me?
Just come with me tonight.
You know I need you.
Just like you need me.
Can't stop, won't stop, I must be dreaming.
Can't stop, won't stop, I must be dreaming."

Its been a while

Long time no see eh?

Well im only posting because I did this interesting personality test I ripped of Olivia's blog. Ill post a longer post on Tuesday. Anyway, here're the results!

Tell me if its true! (seriously) I feel I answered all the questions as honestly as possible. I think its true, but some of the statistics are overly skewed. Like the Perceiving one. Don't know, up to you guys to decide!

Oh, btw, FOLIE A DEUX COMING OUT ON DECEMBER 16TH!!!!!!! YAYYYYY!!!

Cheers

The End is Now

Yes I am alive. 

Over the last 2 weeks I've faced, and learnt a few things about myself.

1) I'm a total loser.

2) I'm probably never going to achieve my goals and ambitions in life.

3) I've wasted 2 valuable years where I should have been studying regularly, trying to have "fun".

4) I'm surrounded by amazing people who I totally do not deserve.

5) I'm pretty sure that come next week my whole life will be decided for me.

Just to warn everyone here. If things do not turn out the way I hope, I'm pretty sure I'll become a pretty different person. It's true that I have no one else to blame but myself. But that realization does not help ANYTHING. I'll be a broken shell. So please. No sympathy, no "oh it'll be OK", and DEFINITELY no "don't worry". I'm pretty sure I should be worrying, and regretting about the things I could have and should have done. 

You see that point (4) up there? That's what I want to talk about now. Firstly, my amazing parents. They've stood by me during this prelims period, where bouts of insecurity and inferiority hit me. My mother especially has always been around with a comforting word. They've both helped me with my studies, especially my dad, who came home early from work a few days just to shore up my confidence more than anything else.

My sister. She didn't help much academics wise, but she was around when I needed to talk about anything other that P,C,M, or E. I've fought a lot with her, but I do love her.

Miss Kwan. Thank god that I've been blessed with a great teacher like Miss Kwan. Twice I smsed her unable to contain my anxiety about how badly my prelim grades will affect my uni applications. Twice she sent me comforting smses that, if not anything, ensured that I kept working hard. 

Mr Hsi. Another blessing in disguise. Those smses before both Math papers helped me greatly. Thank you sir. I've said the rest in the card. XD

Shreya. What can I say other than, THANK YOU for being around. 

Other friends. You guys might not realize it, but every time you made me smile, it took my mind off my screwed up future. 

God Bless All of You. It doesn't matter that all your efforts on this boy seem destined for failure. I'll never forget ALL of you. 

Cheers.

Its a Funny World

Hello all.

And yes, I'm not dead yet. Call me back in 2 weeks and check. I might be.

These prelims are seriously freaking me out. I know I HAVE to do well to stand a chance of achieving my goals in life. But the way the teachers talk about prelims being set to be difficult is scaring me. The A-level papers honestly do not seem difficult. Prelims are scaring me to hell. I sincerely believe my chemistry and mathematics might be fine. Physics too, considering that TJC physics papers aren't as bad as chem or maths. I'm FREAKED out about Economics. I've NEVER done well, and I thought last years promos was alright. Gah. Nothing to do but just study hard and pray I guess.

This is going to be random. Some people have questioned why I want to go into Naval Architecture and Marine Engineering.Take a look at this. Some of you might remember this. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Russian_submarine_Kursk_explosion.
In short, a Russian submarine got completely destroyed due to some poor maintenance and some human error. 118 men died. Can you imagine dying in a submarine? All alone? Underwater? Waiting for the air to slowly run out? These men were soldiers, but they didn't die on the battlefield. They died a horrible death, on the ocean floor. And what made is worse is the stupid ego that the country had. Russia didn't allow rescue teams from foreign countries to even try! This was the first transcript that Russia publicized. The first fax to press corps was, "the submarine had minor technical difficulties". PFFFFFFFT. You know what a minor technical difficulty is? A faulty school OHP. Have you a seen a faulty projector KILL PEOPLE? I want to be able to help these guys, whether its submarines, or ships, not something far better. Stranded in the open sea, waiting for sharks or fatigue is pretty scary too. I might not do much, but at least I'm willing to try make a difference.

Well time to get back to mugging. But here's something HILARIOUS. Its the new discovery channel ad called "Boom De Ah Dah!" HAHA. Watch and enjoy. Adam setting fire to Jamie is priceless. This is a little different from the one on TV.



Cheers all.











"I candy coat and cover everything that I'm still hiding underneath.
It's been a long time, it's been a long time.
A thousand faces looking up at me hands are pointing ceiling oh what a feeling.

I've got friends in highly low places
I'll stand up push it and push it up, can't afford to lose now.
I've got friends in highly low places
I'll go inside when I wanna party, grab a girl and dance (don't touch me)."

INJUSTICE

I'm blogging today because I am totally outraged about the way Liu Xiang the Chinese hurdler is being treated.

For those who do not know the story, Liu Xiang was China's poster boy for this Olympics, and possibly their only hope for winning a gold in the track and field competitions. But he injured his Achilles tendon (I think, don't flame me for getting the body part wrong) right before his heats and had to pull out. Now the Chinese public are both disappointed and angry, and it has been blown completely out of proportion with some people saying that he purposely pulled out because he was scared. He's been labelled a "Coward", "Traitor" and what not. BY BLOODY ARMCHAIR CRITICS. The Strait Times has a excerpt of a HOUSEWIFE, calling him a LOSER. WTF.

Even though I may not even come CLOSE to the level of sports that can be witnessed at the 2008 Olympics, I would like to consider myself a sportsman for the context of this argument. I AM COMPLETELY HONOURED to even play for my SCHOOL, and if I ever get a chance (FAT HOPE) to compete in the Olympics, I'd most probably die of shock. So its really unfair to say that Liu Xiang might have pulled out because he was scared. All those bloody critics deserve to be shot in the head and left to rot. Liu Xiang is an athlete through and through, and I'm sure he would have run if he was fine. STUPID people who don't understand the extent of his injury, ought to know that running with a swollen Achilles tendon can end his career forever. He's young and he surely has at least 2 more Olympics ahead of him. Giving it all up just for the sake of STUPID, UNGRATEFUL people (who I'd feel embarrassed to call MY PEOPLE) is dumb. Get stuffed you idiots.

That's enough of ranting. These Olympics have had amazing moments, like Michael Phelps becoming the first athlete to get 8 Golds in a single Games, and the sheer audacity with which Ussain Bolt won the 100m Men's final. But the Chinese people expect too much from mere humans who have done no wrong other than be good at what they do. If that continues, these athletes will lose the passion they have for their sport and might even consider early retirement to escape the public eye.

Cheers.