So the big year is finally coming to an end.
A-levels? check.
University applications? check.
Passport and VISA? check.
All I now have to do is wait for the damned results.
Anyway I'd be lying if said that this year hasn't been a great year just because of what happened in the past week. It was an awesome year. A lot of things that happened this year have helped me grow, hopefully into a better person. I got new friends, and old friends became better friends. There were several parts of this year I was seriously down and doubting myself, but many friends helped me through it all. And yes, you too Sarah Soh. :D haha. I know you're always annoyed I never mentioned you here. So this one is for you. Lol. Just kidding. You were a great help. XD
Anyway, it just sucked that this year ended on such a messed up note. But life's like that I guess. Maybe its time I said it here. I've been accepted into two out of the four Universities I applied for, namely University of Michigan and University of Illinois. I'm very happy to be honest, because there was a time after prelims I was wondering if I even had a chance to get in anywhere. So now its just a waiting game for me. Hopefully my results turn out fine, and everything gets better for me in 2009.
Oh and on this note, please do keep reading this blog. Sometime next year I'm going to try and embark on this round India roadtrip all alone. The basic rules I've set for myself are no cabs. Buses and Trains only. I think it'll be quite fun. I need to get the hang of some basic Hindi, but my mum can help me with that. I'll regularly update my experiences here when I'm there. I'm quite excited about the idea and also mainly because my parents thought its cool too!
So anyway, that's all for now I guess. Balaji comes back tomorrow and we've got the whole memorial/service for Sanstav to finalize and plan by tomorrow. Please do try to attend, all of you who read this blog. It will be in TJC. Maybe we can try to work out an arrangement for those of you who are not from this school.
Anyway, I'm out.
Cheers.
"One more song,
we can sing along
to our big break.
No more mistakes.
One more time,
we'll do what we have to
to get this off the ground.
No more should've been,
no more could've been,
There's no last thing now."
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Monday, December 22, 2008
Closure
So now we have word that Sanstav Paul's body has been found. Funny how it seems that prayers never get answered eh?
Sunday, December 21, 2008
Gone
Today evening I found out that Sanstav Paul, my senior is assumed dead after his plane crashed. He's in a pilot school. His body has still supposedly not been found, but the search has been going on for over 21 hours now.
I can't really explain how shocked I was when I got that phone call from Ashwin today. This hollow numbness, like every little bit of emotion was being sucked out of you, leaving just an empty shell. Comprehension was difficult. At first I was told that he was dead. Just plain vanilla dead. A guy who even this year I had played cricket with, laughed with, argued with, and most importantly spent time with was gone. Just like that. And later I was told that there is still this inkling, of a chance that he might be alive, considering that he still hasn't been found.
And all that did was give me a spark of hope. One that I never wish to see extinguished. Its bubbling amongst all of us. Its holding us together. And we all can only pray and hope. He was honestly a really good friend of mine, and my direct senior in Cricket.
If there's a God out there, you know what to do.
Cheers.
I can't really explain how shocked I was when I got that phone call from Ashwin today. This hollow numbness, like every little bit of emotion was being sucked out of you, leaving just an empty shell. Comprehension was difficult. At first I was told that he was dead. Just plain vanilla dead. A guy who even this year I had played cricket with, laughed with, argued with, and most importantly spent time with was gone. Just like that. And later I was told that there is still this inkling, of a chance that he might be alive, considering that he still hasn't been found.
And all that did was give me a spark of hope. One that I never wish to see extinguished. Its bubbling amongst all of us. Its holding us together. And we all can only pray and hope. He was honestly a really good friend of mine, and my direct senior in Cricket.
If there's a God out there, you know what to do.
Cheers.
Thursday, December 18, 2008
The fun ends here
My folks are coming back tomorrow morning, so I guess the fun ends tonight haha.
I guess its been a pretty fun week. I've learnt to do everything on my own, from cooking, to cleaning the dishes, to cleaning the house. And I'll be pretty happy to see my folks again. I'm going to catch them at the airport tomorrow early in the morning, so no late night mapling for me! hahaha.
Bernice popped over tonight to give me a pleasant surprise! haha. She was at Jawi's house, and she wanted to come over to see my FRIDGE? hahaha weird girl. Anyway, she tried to play Call of Duty and Viva Pinata haha. And we also played chess, where I tried not to win! haha. JUST KIDDING BURNIS. :D
I hope Folie a Duex has been released in Singapore already. I want to go get it tomorrow. Then all the music I need for a while would have been purchased! hahahahaha.
Oh well anyway, I've got to go clean up the place. :D
Cheers!
I guess its been a pretty fun week. I've learnt to do everything on my own, from cooking, to cleaning the dishes, to cleaning the house. And I'll be pretty happy to see my folks again. I'm going to catch them at the airport tomorrow early in the morning, so no late night mapling for me! hahaha.
Bernice popped over tonight to give me a pleasant surprise! haha. She was at Jawi's house, and she wanted to come over to see my FRIDGE? hahaha weird girl. Anyway, she tried to play Call of Duty and Viva Pinata haha. And we also played chess, where I tried not to win! haha. JUST KIDDING BURNIS. :D
I hope Folie a Duex has been released in Singapore already. I want to go get it tomorrow. Then all the music I need for a while would have been purchased! hahahahaha.
Oh well anyway, I've got to go clean up the place. :D
Cheers!
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Stoned
Man do I feel hung over.
And the worst part is, I don't drink.
Yesterday Eugene and Gavin stayed over at my place. Basically we spent the whole night playing Call of Duty Modern Warfare and that means that me and Eugene were repeatedly PWNed by Gavin, who'd played this game before. But it was insane fun. What was even better was when the four of us, (Kenneth was here also at an earlier time) played VIVA PINATA party animals. Haha! It was so much insane fun. After that, Kenneth had to leave, and the remaining 3 of us kindda died, playing Maplestory for the rest of the time.
And today morning, I went to play CRICKET! hahaha. Been sooooo LONG. And boy did it feel good. Maybe cause I've been watching cricket on TV and trying to pick up some tips, but my batting has REALLY improved. And so has my bowling! And on this note, INDIA WON. Yea I'll be honest, I will always support NZL more than India. But winning this game felt different. It was an amazing feeling to watch a Mumbai born player win the game for us. After the shit that happened there, maybe people finally have something to celebrate about. It was quite obvious that this win was more than just a stupid cricket match. I had something to do with the morale of the whole nation. And besides, they were playing England, and I HATE the England cricket team. haha. So this made it more sweeter. :D
I just purchased the Road to Revolution CD, (LP's new live album!) and I have to say, I LOVE IT. Linkin Park is the FIRST rock band I ever properly followed, and I really enjoy their music. Don't flame me about this, I won't care. haha.
Oh well, still very dazed. Too little sleep + physical exertion = one woozy Raghav
Cheers peeps. XD
And the worst part is, I don't drink.
Yesterday Eugene and Gavin stayed over at my place. Basically we spent the whole night playing Call of Duty Modern Warfare and that means that me and Eugene were repeatedly PWNed by Gavin, who'd played this game before. But it was insane fun. What was even better was when the four of us, (Kenneth was here also at an earlier time) played VIVA PINATA party animals. Haha! It was so much insane fun. After that, Kenneth had to leave, and the remaining 3 of us kindda died, playing Maplestory for the rest of the time.
And today morning, I went to play CRICKET! hahaha. Been sooooo LONG. And boy did it feel good. Maybe cause I've been watching cricket on TV and trying to pick up some tips, but my batting has REALLY improved. And so has my bowling! And on this note, INDIA WON. Yea I'll be honest, I will always support NZL more than India. But winning this game felt different. It was an amazing feeling to watch a Mumbai born player win the game for us. After the shit that happened there, maybe people finally have something to celebrate about. It was quite obvious that this win was more than just a stupid cricket match. I had something to do with the morale of the whole nation. And besides, they were playing England, and I HATE the England cricket team. haha. So this made it more sweeter. :D
I just purchased the Road to Revolution CD, (LP's new live album!) and I have to say, I LOVE IT. Linkin Park is the FIRST rock band I ever properly followed, and I really enjoy their music. Don't flame me about this, I won't care. haha.
Oh well, still very dazed. Too little sleep + physical exertion = one woozy Raghav
Cheers peeps. XD
Saturday, December 13, 2008
Airport, AGAIN
I should seriously look into whether it's possible for me to get some kind of award for the number of times I have been to the Airport for fun over the past 2 weeks. Yesterday, dad and sis left for India too. So now (Drumroll please) I'M ALL ALONE. XD. Well not for now, my cousin is over for the weekend. We spent the night yesterday playing 2 player co-op LEGO STAR WARS. HAHA. IT WAS SO HILARIOUS. When you kill people, they dont die, they fall to lego bits! haha.
The chalet with the guys was quite enjoyable. It started with Marcus pwning all of us at Cutthroat Caverns, (28 prestige? wtfh?) and then it progressively got more retarded. After the barbeque the guys were watching retarded Chinese dramas and playing cards simultaneously. OH, DURING THE BARBEQUE, WE WERE WATCHING DON'T FORGET THE LYRICS, AND SINGING ALONG SIMULTANEOUSLY. XD. Then LT, Jia He, Fidot and Han Wee left, so it was down to only the 4 of us (Gavin, Kenneth, Marcus and Me). We continued playing cards, talking (lots of talking) and we took this crazy night walk around the place. Back in the room, more talk, lots of Citadel, many many stupid talk shows on TV, Yogurt drinks out of the cartons, SEXY BUSINESS CRACK (inside joke :D), and finally abt an hr of sleep.
Awesome. XP
Got home and then I was totally blown away by the number of Xbox games my dad's friend had lent me indefinitely. (LEGO: Star Wars is one of them). So I guess my holidays are full. haha. Next week we might have Chalet part 2, where the guys now come over to my place and we have another round of fun, hopefully without burning my house down.
Now it's time to go shower and save the world from evil terrorists (did I mention Call of Duty 4 is AWESOME?).
Cheers.
"Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.
Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There's gotta be somebody for me like that.
Cause nobody wants to go it on their own.
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
Somebody else that feels the same somewhere.
There's gotta be somebody for me out there."
The chalet with the guys was quite enjoyable. It started with Marcus pwning all of us at Cutthroat Caverns, (28 prestige? wtfh?) and then it progressively got more retarded. After the barbeque the guys were watching retarded Chinese dramas and playing cards simultaneously. OH, DURING THE BARBEQUE, WE WERE WATCHING DON'T FORGET THE LYRICS, AND SINGING ALONG SIMULTANEOUSLY. XD. Then LT, Jia He, Fidot and Han Wee left, so it was down to only the 4 of us (Gavin, Kenneth, Marcus and Me). We continued playing cards, talking (lots of talking) and we took this crazy night walk around the place. Back in the room, more talk, lots of Citadel, many many stupid talk shows on TV, Yogurt drinks out of the cartons, SEXY BUSINESS CRACK (inside joke :D), and finally abt an hr of sleep.
Awesome. XP
Got home and then I was totally blown away by the number of Xbox games my dad's friend had lent me indefinitely. (LEGO: Star Wars is one of them). So I guess my holidays are full. haha. Next week we might have Chalet part 2, where the guys now come over to my place and we have another round of fun, hopefully without burning my house down.
Now it's time to go shower and save the world from evil terrorists (did I mention Call of Duty 4 is AWESOME?).
Cheers.
"Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.
Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There's gotta be somebody for me like that.
Cause nobody wants to go it on their own.
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
Somebody else that feels the same somewhere.
There's gotta be somebody for me out there."
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Star Wars
Here's the first light hearted post in a while. XD
I never really noticed until Eugene said it that day. The post Star Wars era has begun to set in. People now days don't know what race Chewbacca is from. People don't know that he's Han Solo's first mate. People don't know WHO HAN SOLO IS. For me, its really weird. Star Wars was the first saga that I ever really followed. Oh screw it and stop calling me a geek in your head already. haha. But I'm serious. The movies, the books, the games, I know them all. But kids these days (my sister's batch) hardly know anything. Some people on youtube (random video, I don't remember) called the Force as MAGIC, and queried if you need MANA to CAST it.
O.O
And only few people my age realize that the Star Wars stories are actually quite deep! haha. The whole Jedi vs. Sith thing is more than just a simple Good vs. Evil struggle. If you haven't understood that till now, then you just ain't getting it. XD
Oh and on this note, I'd like to say something else. For those who know what an Imperial Star Destroyer is, (too few darn it) I RAGHAV TOOK DOWN A WHOLE STAR DESTROYER BY PULLING IT DOWN USING THE FORCE. hahahahahahahaha. Awesome video, its in the game I'm playing, The Force Unleashed. Watching it go down was an awesome feeling. Even this simple GAME has quite a spectacular storyline, that links the 3rd movie (The Revenge of the Sith) to the 4th (A New Hope). If you're really bored, and you don't have anything to do, PLEASE watch all 6?
Okie, I'm out.
Cheers.
"Do or do not,
there is no try."
I never really noticed until Eugene said it that day. The post Star Wars era has begun to set in. People now days don't know what race Chewbacca is from. People don't know that he's Han Solo's first mate. People don't know WHO HAN SOLO IS. For me, its really weird. Star Wars was the first saga that I ever really followed. Oh screw it and stop calling me a geek in your head already. haha. But I'm serious. The movies, the books, the games, I know them all. But kids these days (my sister's batch) hardly know anything. Some people on youtube (random video, I don't remember) called the Force as MAGIC, and queried if you need MANA to CAST it.
O.O
And only few people my age realize that the Star Wars stories are actually quite deep! haha. The whole Jedi vs. Sith thing is more than just a simple Good vs. Evil struggle. If you haven't understood that till now, then you just ain't getting it. XD
Oh and on this note, I'd like to say something else. For those who know what an Imperial Star Destroyer is, (too few darn it) I RAGHAV TOOK DOWN A WHOLE STAR DESTROYER BY PULLING IT DOWN USING THE FORCE. hahahahahahahaha. Awesome video, its in the game I'm playing, The Force Unleashed. Watching it go down was an awesome feeling. Even this simple GAME has quite a spectacular storyline, that links the 3rd movie (The Revenge of the Sith) to the 4th (A New Hope). If you're really bored, and you don't have anything to do, PLEASE watch all 6?
Okie, I'm out.
Cheers.
"Do or do not,
there is no try."
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Still standing
Sometimes I think, that I overthink things.
Late night train rides make me feel very lonely. And there have been too many of them in the past week.
I went to watch a Tamil movie with some of the cricket guys. I'd have to say that it was a pretty nice sappy, mellow movie, but what it effectively did was put me in a very reflective mood. And that sucked. Couldn't sleep properly that night, and why? Cause I was busy talking to myself. About something I promised I won't talk about. Its that syndrome I was discussing with Gavin and Kenneth the other day. I must soon see a shrink about it. haha.
Thank God that I'm very good at hiding how I really feel.
Mum left last friday and till now things have been quite alright. Sunday was a seriously awesome day. All us guys went to meet Jonathan! He had booked out for Hari Raya, and thus, we all had this giant outing at downtown East with him. It was really awesome. Sitting around and talking cock, like the good old days. hahaha. I'm really going to miss those ASS CLOWNS (a new word taught to me by none other than Kenneth!). Oh and some of us guys are playing Maplestory again. hahaha. As one TA party. Haha.
This really doesn't make any sense.
Well that's all folks. Cheers.
"We'll be miles apart.
I'll keep you deep inside,
you're always in my heart.
A new life to start.
I may be leaving but,
you're always in my heart."
Late night train rides make me feel very lonely. And there have been too many of them in the past week.
I went to watch a Tamil movie with some of the cricket guys. I'd have to say that it was a pretty nice sappy, mellow movie, but what it effectively did was put me in a very reflective mood. And that sucked. Couldn't sleep properly that night, and why? Cause I was busy talking to myself. About something I promised I won't talk about. Its that syndrome I was discussing with Gavin and Kenneth the other day. I must soon see a shrink about it. haha.
Thank God that I'm very good at hiding how I really feel.
Mum left last friday and till now things have been quite alright. Sunday was a seriously awesome day. All us guys went to meet Jonathan! He had booked out for Hari Raya, and thus, we all had this giant outing at downtown East with him. It was really awesome. Sitting around and talking cock, like the good old days. hahaha. I'm really going to miss those ASS CLOWNS (a new word taught to me by none other than Kenneth!). Oh and some of us guys are playing Maplestory again. hahaha. As one TA party. Haha.
This really doesn't make any sense.
Well that's all folks. Cheers.
"We'll be miles apart.
I'll keep you deep inside,
you're always in my heart.
A new life to start.
I may be leaving but,
you're always in my heart."
Thursday, December 4, 2008
Airport
I've gone to the airport twice in two days. Maybe I can redeem my frequent flier miles. hahaha. Sorry, I'm in just one of those wonky moods.
I got over my Emo-ness of yesterday thanks to long talks with Lee Tat and Wendy. Those two really helped, and the latter cheered me up like crazy! haha, of course LT too lah, especially after Eugene got into the convo! XD
Really really bored these days, but my next two days are quite hectic. I'm looking forward to Gavin's supposed X'mas chalet. Love hanging with the guys. Its awesome fun. I never knew guys BITCH so much! HAHAHA.
OH! And here's another thing I'd like to say. THANK YOU LUCASARTS FOR STAR WARS: THE FORCE UNLEASHED. Its an swesome way to release stress when you're upset. Seriously. One Jedi + One Lightsaber + MANY Force Powers = FUNNNNN. I love lifting those stupid stormtroopers and tossing them right off the buildings. Damn FUN. hahahahahaha (And now you can guess that I'm this wonky, only cause I was playing until 5 minutes ago!!!!)
Righto. Anyway, cricket tomorrow, and for the first time in a long time, BOTH BALAS WILL BE THERE. WOOTS.
Anyway, thats all here folks. But before I go, here's a song my an awesome band called The Maine. Its called Everything I Ask For. Fuuny ass video. Enjoy.
Cheers.
I got over my Emo-ness of yesterday thanks to long talks with Lee Tat and Wendy. Those two really helped, and the latter cheered me up like crazy! haha, of course LT too lah, especially after Eugene got into the convo! XD
Really really bored these days, but my next two days are quite hectic. I'm looking forward to Gavin's supposed X'mas chalet. Love hanging with the guys. Its awesome fun. I never knew guys BITCH so much! HAHAHA.
OH! And here's another thing I'd like to say. THANK YOU LUCASARTS FOR STAR WARS: THE FORCE UNLEASHED. Its an swesome way to release stress when you're upset. Seriously. One Jedi + One Lightsaber + MANY Force Powers = FUNNNNN. I love lifting those stupid stormtroopers and tossing them right off the buildings. Damn FUN. hahahahahaha (And now you can guess that I'm this wonky, only cause I was playing until 5 minutes ago!!!!)
Righto. Anyway, cricket tomorrow, and for the first time in a long time, BOTH BALAS WILL BE THERE. WOOTS.
Anyway, thats all here folks. But before I go, here's a song my an awesome band called The Maine. Its called Everything I Ask For. Fuuny ass video. Enjoy.
Cheers.
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
I'm an idiot
I never realized how difficult it would be for me to say goodbye.
Sorry for looking like a total retard. I hate how inferior I felt. I hate that I was there like a fool. I hate that I couldn't say ANYTHING to you. I hate myself. Period.
Goddammit.
"Cos you bring out the best in me, like no-one else can do.
That's why I'm by your side, and that's why I love you ."
Sorry for looking like a total retard. I hate how inferior I felt. I hate that I was there like a fool. I hate that I couldn't say ANYTHING to you. I hate myself. Period.
Goddammit.
"Cos you bring out the best in me, like no-one else can do.
That's why I'm by your side, and that's why I love you ."
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